Losing that puny, ripoff of a #vapewand I had before was probably a good thing. #upgrade #cucumbermint #nonicotine #vape #vaping
One Big Balancing Act
It’s probably a good thing that my social life is nonexistent because I need all the time I can get to try and balance everything I want to do.
I’ve been putting off this TOEFL certification online course for too long and I need to get on it before mid-May, otherwise I can’t get my 100-hour certification and the only way to get it is to pay for the course again. AND when I do finish it, I have to complete some paperwork for my job so I can try and get tuition reimbursement from it.
And I HATE online courses. No matter what the subject is, I have a lot of difficulty retaining anything I learned from this kind of learning environment. It’s easier to get distracted with something else on the computer, and it’s harder to round up study buddies and work on stuff together… if that makes any sense. The two or three Japanese language and culture courses I took online? Don’t remember shit, which is really sad. Neither do I remember the two online courses I took over one summer after freshman year, but hey, those were basics, ok. That’s why I’m glad I did an ESL course where at least part of the curriculum is taken place in a physical classroom setting. Language is much harder to teach without an actual “voice” present. I may consider myself a visual learner, but I need that physical educational environment in order to feel productive.
I’ve also slipped up on the gym for over a month (save one day), but now that I have a guide that one of my best friends supplied me, I feel more prepared to take it on. It’s just a matter of having the motivation to start it and keep at it.
Sleep is something I need bad. As much as I tell myself to get to bed around 10pm, I still don’t hit the sheets until between midnight and 1am (in extreme cases, 2am or after). I can’t do that to myself anymore. Among other things, it’s affected my productivity at work (at a time where they’ve bugged me for being a little too sluggish getting work done; my health has certainly become affected by it) my growing issue with hair thinning/loss (loooooool) seems to be getting even worse, I fall prey to junk food more easily, and even when I get the energy and motivation to go to the gym after work, I pussy out and go straight home instead.
(As I write this, it’s 5 minutes to midnight. Sigh.)
I haven’t bothered keeping up with Spanish and Japanese studies too much because I’m so busy with work, aside from changing the interface language, plus I only have so much free time after work to get any studying done, especially when I throw in working out and post-work errands in the mix; I feel anxious that I won’t have time to just relax and bullshit around. So my plan is to devote my ESL cert studies on weekends in order to give myself more time to devote on completing the courses in a timely matter, study Spanish and Japanese during my lunch break instead of cramming it in whenever I can, progress into sleeping at earlier times… did I miss something?
Oh yeah, gym time. The gym will definitely ease a lot of these anxieties, and then some. Perfect timing that I have to help my mom for one of her aerobic classes tomorrow. I’ll just work out right after work, then all I have to do is wait on her.
To… a new start. In April. Ah, well… better late than never is what I always say.
Although I have to wait yet another year for the chance to go back to Japan and teach English, it’s humbling to know that there are people rooting for me to pursue my dream.
And I should do the same for them.
I don’t understand white people.
Yall have no problem walking in yalls houses with your shoes on and yall love walking around barefoot outside (especially on concrete)
Makes no sense to me.
forreal that shit is wild
Now now, don’t single out white people…
Latinos do it too, trust. and there’s nothing wrong with walking barefoot on concrete unless it’s summertime.
"It teaches us that a short skirt and a smile is asking for it."
Reminds me of a tweet I came across on my feed sometime last week. Someone I know from high school tweeted about a sexual assault that had happened in London (where he lives now playing for some soccer team there) and had said that though he sympathized with the woman, he felt that her wearing a short skirt at 3am made her a target.
I was SO tempted to tell him off and that it doesn’t matter what she wore, where she was assaulted, and when it happened. Rape is rape. Whether intentional or not, he pretty much gave the assaulter the pass and faulted the victim in his tweet. If he goes pro and establishes a following of fans, some anti-fan is gonna dig up shit like that and blow it up, trust.
And ooooooh the schadenfreude I’ll get if that happens. He was kind of a douche anyway and didn’t get along with him too well in HS.